Thoughts Alive

There are days when you are faced not with compassion and understanding but, questioning and accusation. The people you love even, fail to grasp what you try to tell them. Now you may want to blame them, be angry but, have grace with yourself and with them. Because you know yourself best and if they won't listen, there's always someone else who will.  As it is in these times where you want to succumb to the norm, to society's standards, to go against your faith and beliefs to make someone happy with who you are and what you do. But, that isn't the answer, it wasn't the first time you forced yourself into chaos nor were it the years you fell deeper into the depths, losing yourself in each passing day. And it is in this rebellion, to take a stand for what you are confident in that the signs will show.  Flowers will bloom when the covers are drawn, the tears are soaked up and a positive note hums through the earth. Familiar numbers, a warm, exciting feeling

We all go through phases and times of struggle, where we feel less than our best selves, when each day we hope, pray even that it'll be better than one before. But, there's a problem with that hope: Are you doing anything to change how you feel? Are you making your day go any different than the last? It's important to note that change happens when: 1.) We want to change for ourselves, not anyone else. 2.) We focus on ourselves, what we want, what we enjoy doing, what overall makes us happy. 3.) We live the life we want to live. Not the life anyone says you should be living or how, but your life for you. Yes, it sounds selfish, and at first it may seem that way. Saying no to people for the time spent you could get ahead on things you need to do, chores, even taking time for reflection, may actually improve your relationships with those around you, yourself and bring needed clarity. It's a process. There's no sugar coating the patience you'll need

You should say yes, to the opportunities you believe in, the ideas that excite you, and people you cherish every moment with.  Don't spend your time uselessly, to dreading each ticking second for the happiness of someone you honestly don't have much care for, otherwise you wouldn't be so miserable. Be honest with yourself, and say no when needed. 

When we're young, we can't wait until we grow up. When we can do whatever we want and go wherever. A time when we're older, smarter, prettier, or more handsome--a time when everything will fall in place and all our questions will be answered. But being an adult isn't that--at all. Instead we wish to go back, to staring out windows with not nearly as much worry on our minds. When depression and anxiety didn't cloud our feelings, and where a smile isn't so hard to muster but something absolutely easy and natural. Where all we want now, is the chance to go back and enjoy the simpleness of childhood, or what was left of one. Except how can you go back to childhood when it's so far away? When it was only small moments that reminded you of your age and gave you an escape from the responsibilities sitting on your chest? How do you live the life you truly want to live?

What would happen if everyone heard that voice inside--their intuition, the creativity speaking in hopes of action to bring its force to prosperous life? What would become of those souls? Would their life improve, or if we began small, would their mood incline? What would become? First though we must ask ourselves do we have that voice, that gut wrenching feeling that may hit like a pinprick or one day it'll not be in your chest or stomach but like a brick to the head--does any of this sound familiar? If not well I don't know what to call it but I'd suggest becoming more in tune with yourself and inner self especially. In the ways that you can confidently decide once given and having a presented opportunity before you, to choose the utmost one that you individually, personally and selfishly feel at your best and at peace with. It's a hard road and it doesn't necessarily happen over night--maybe it's tragedy and loss through the years, wisdom with th

Think of this--2020 is a new year but it's also a new decade.  This decade what will you do? Maybe in this decade you'll get married, have children, travel the world, reach the starting point that turns to a successful pedestal in your career and from there you continue with strength and motivation. This new year isn't just another, it's a wake up call. A wake up call, that's right--an alarm really--to what you ask though?  2020 is the year for change, real change. Not the hypocritical, internet shit but get out there volunteer, donate, foster animals, change your diet and lifestyle for your body and health but also the environment--did you know every second a cow is killed in a slaughterhouse? And trust me, however humane it is and yes beef and other meats are protein and vitamin packed, have you ever driven past those slaughterhouses? I'll tell you, on the way to the valley and city of Angels, from the north end of California--the smell is horrendou