Thoughts Alive

There are days when you are faced not with compassion and understanding but, questioning and accusation. The people you love even, fail to grasp what you try to tell them. Now you may want to blame them, be angry but, have grace with yourself and with them. Because you know yourself best and if they won't listen, there's always someone else who will.  As it is in these times where you want to succumb to the norm, to society's standards, to go against your faith and beliefs to make someone happy with who you are and what you do. But, that isn't the answer, it wasn't the first time you forced yourself into chaos nor were it the years you fell deeper into the depths, losing yourself in each passing day. And it is in this rebellion, to take a stand for what you are confident in that the signs will show.  Flowers will bloom when the covers are drawn, the tears are soaked up and a positive note hums through the earth. Familiar numbers, a warm, exciting feeling

We all go through phases and times of struggle, where we feel less than our best selves, when each day we hope, pray even that it'll be better than one before. But, there's a problem with that hope: Are you doing anything to change how you feel? Are you making your day go any different than the last? It's important to note that change happens when: 1.) We want to change for ourselves, not anyone else. 2.) We focus on ourselves, what we want, what we enjoy doing, what overall makes us happy. 3.) We live the life we want to live. Not the life anyone says you should be living or how, but your life for you. Yes, it sounds selfish, and at first it may seem that way. Saying no to people for the time spent you could get ahead on things you need to do, chores, even taking time for reflection, may actually improve your relationships with those around you, yourself and bring needed clarity. It's a process. There's no sugar coating the patience you'll need