Thoughts Alive

There are days when you are faced not with compassion and understanding but, questioning and accusation. The people you love even, fail to grasp what you try to tell them. Now you may want to blame them, be angry but, have grace with yourself and with them. Because you know yourself best and if they won't listen, there's always someone else who will.  As it is in these times where you want to succumb to the norm, to society's standards, to go against your faith and beliefs to make someone happy with who you are and what you do. But, that isn't the answer, it wasn't the first time you forced yourself into chaos nor were it the years you fell deeper into the depths, losing yourself in each passing day. And it is in this rebellion, to take a stand for what you are confident in that the signs will show.  Flowers will bloom when the covers are drawn, the tears are soaked up and a positive note hums through the earth. Familiar numbers, a warm, exciting feeling ...

We all feel the pressure. We are weighed down by the responsibilities and actions demanded formally and subliminally. We know not enough but we are still forced to make the decisions that will change ourselves and our lives as we know it to ever be. We aren't ever ready to carry out such demands that are forced upon us and yet we conform, we change, we do not what we like or want, what we desire or are passionate for but instead what society and its fillers want us to do. We live our lives as others expect and demand us to carry out; not for our sanity, or our so heavily repeated and termed--"temporary happiness". We live what is in the masses believed and thought to be just. For in teaching and guiltily provoking, we lose ourselves and our pure individuality and creativity for the same routines, the stressful pit falls that come in trying to be who we are not and our soul of self is drowned in false expectations and ideals that have little to nothing to do with ...