There are misconceptions everywhere, maybe they come from your very lips as well and later you realize your misstep. But we all do it and we can only learn from each action and do better by the next.
There are days when you are faced not with compassion and understanding but, questioning and accusation. The people you love even, fail to grasp what you try to tell them. Now you may want to blame them, be angry but, have grace with yourself and with them. Because you know yourself best and if they won't listen, there's always someone else who will. As it is in these times where you want to succumb to the norm, to society's standards, to go against your faith and beliefs to make someone happy with who you are and what you do. But, that isn't the answer, it wasn't the first time you forced yourself into chaos nor were it the years you fell deeper into the depths, losing yourself in each passing day. And it is in this rebellion, to take a stand for what you are confident in that the signs will show. Flowers will bloom when the covers are drawn, the tears are soaked up and a positive note hums through the earth. Familiar numbers, a warm, exciting feeling ...
Our lives are experiments. We try new things, go out and talk to strangers and hope that one day we won't be so alone, or alone in the sense of never connecting with at least one person. That the friends we have now, can you honestly say they are you're true friends? The someone to answer the phone at 2 am when your car won't start, who will pick you up when you're drunk, spend the day with you at a coffee shop or lounging in sweats and ratty shirts with movies in the background, talk with you and give their whole attention besides the occasional side glance to the movie or show in the background that you had originally put on to watch but instead talking is the go to because you each have so much to say and yet you'll listen graciously to the other person. The someone you connect with is your best friend, romantically or platonically--you're there for each other and you care. Now how many of you have true, real friends?
It's simply one of those days where no song hits right, the food you love doesn't taste as it usually does, and life is really just blah. Yeah, blah. It's not that the day is bad but it's not to be even considered good because it just doesn't feel right. Nothing feels right and everything seems to be off.
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